Writing...

This world ended since i graduated from Polytechnic with GPA 3.02. It was good, i got lesser to complain about. And this post isn't about spreading my anger, my complain nor my sadness. It is about Reflection. *'Sleep' damn it. why the hell did army teach me this. (Laugh)

*People do say, 'God damn it' and a joke did say something like 'Hala damn it'. This is better in Chinese but, 'I don't believe in Christianity, i don't believe in Buddha, i believe in Sleep' so...ya, Sleep damn it.

Well, for visitors that didn't know, i am serving the army for my nation right now, not much time to post, or i am lazy to. in addition to confidential rubbish, i can't post my complains or army related stuff on the internet. Writing, is the Title of the post. On my second day of Enlistment, one guy introduced himself "My name is *******, i write novels"...i didn't take him seriously at first, not until someone remind the bunk about him, writing novels. than, i got interested and read his novel. It is good, i enjoyed it. it is a great weekend pass time, just reading his novel.

Speaking of which, I, do write/type stories. but, due to my weak English, inconsistency and all kinds of rubbish, like NAMES, i didn't actually tell anyone about it. The 1st long story i wrote, with free style was when i am studying in Secondary 2. The year, my home got access to the Internet. I kinda got attracted to this girl, yeah, from the first day of school, without myself noticing, i stared at her almost for the whole day. First day of school, while, teachers don't have much for us, right?

This girl became my Main Character in the story. of cause, i am always full of myself, so, i am part of the story as well. not forgetting close soccer friends during Secondary School times, they are definitely inside my story. But, always...my story got long and inconsistent, i got to restart, or maybe when my computer broke down, it's a brand new story again. In the end, the names of characters didn't change. Although i hated Secondary School education, friends i made were few of the everlasting ones.

For stories, the most powerful personnels will be no other than childhood friends + my brother. Now, speaking of my brother, he did try to write. 'Sorry, i read whatever you typed' it was kinda interesting start because it was my secondary school period and Zombies hunting earth is not hot at that time! My brother foresee the future and wanted to write about Zombies hunting the world. Sadly, he stopped very soon after he started.

Always thought, whatever i do, he would be better... Of cause, backtrack a little, after reading my friends' novels, i see the differences. Description. I suck at that! In my story, the surroundings, clothes, how a person speak, what tone is he using or whatever, is always in my heart. It's like only i know, anyone else reading it, they will feel weird.

So, really, I wanted to learn and write something better. Knowing that I am a guy with no determination, o well, i will give up very soon......so, maybe i will continue to write, just for my own entertainment. 'Laugh'

Let's hope our Novel Writer would succeed, because i will definitely buy his book! A promise is a promise!! Although i hated books and didn't really complete reading a thick book before, i will read! if it is his.

Hmm, suddenly, i remember the praise to use on something i am bad at... "Naming Convention!"

This two words, brings back memory...><....

My GPA 3.02

Yesterday, results for Major Project (MP/FYP) and SIP (Attachment/Student Internship Programme) came out. My GPA finally/for the first time, raised to 3. From the end of Semester 1.1, my GPA was, 2.51, 2.91, 2.93 ,2.91, 2.92 ,3.02... A 3, finally, in my polytechnic life... It's just amazing, i had been complaining about not getting 3, and now i get it, i am getting too proud of myself...First time in my life, i get something better than my Brother....talking about PSLE, O Levels, even in games like Soccer, etc. Nothing i did was better than him...now, my GPA is higher...but, o well...my brother didn't get into a course whereby he could show off his talent...won only by handicap...CRAP!...zzz...

As this could be a post in awhile, i'll just write down some thoughts...as, it feels like a repeat in history......I was transfered to Chai Chee Secondary after failing most of my subjects in Secondary One......and during the Life in Chai Chee, i always told myself...well, i really hoped that i was here when i was in Secondary One. because, these people are so fun to be with...they are people i trust and we fought together, in the Days of hard work and battled with O Levels as one.

Recently, although Polytechnic Life is coming to an end...i would like to say......C175, it would be nice if i was with your class since the beginning...i wonder what kind of person i might become. maybe not much different, but, it would be really nice if i could meet you guys earlier...

But of cause, i have seen pretty much in both C173 and C175 as a Classmate and Outsider...i guess i should be satisfied. It seems all stupid choices i made, up till today, work out bit by bit...

I suppose, i could go to National Service to the extreme...

Major Project over.....

This Blog (World) almost ended with me, by my boring life. i did not post anything during my major NOT because i wanted to concentrate. it's because, there isn't much to write about. previously, when i write and write, i found out that i complain more and more. I am trying to stop complaining though...

Well, Major Project or Final Year Project, is over, now that i can consider, Pending to Graduate. Well, in the past, Secondary School, after my O Levels, within one week, i was nagging by my parents until, i got a job. didn't get much time to rest...this time.....i guess I'll slack!

Lastly, i want to...THANKS MY MAJOR PROJECT GROUP MEMBERS (and Foreign Advisor) FOR THEIR HARD WORK! Your hard work made my Major Project, fun, happy and knowledgeable.

MP week 1. End of SIP

OK, skipped blogging for 6 weeks and now Jurong Life is over. but, my mystery remains, what when wrong...solution, "I hold no grudges, i will leave this Friendship to them."

MP, Day 1...

Got 2 Computers instead of 3. well, well...one laptop, is a must, i guess...Team with Joel and Dave, both suffered with me in the past, on different occasion. But now, we will suffer/fight together, as one.

For me, i've prepared everything i needed. VGA Splitter (Cable), 2GB Ram (Laptop). Equipping with HardDisk 160GB, 4GB ThumbDrive, 1GB micro SD (From NDS) for file sharing.

Even my SamSung Omnia, which is running Windows Mobile, is going to be used...

Its going to be a fully loaded Major Project, because of the three of us is going all out!

6 weeks left Part 2/2

I finally got the feeling to admit. Although i had been proud, some say arrogant, saying things

like i can live even if i am alone and all those crap, it seems that i am just dreaming. i said

things like, I am me, nothing more, nothing less. and i wouldn't changed. but, it's all fake.

i am so vunlerable to the surrounding and i had changed even before i know it. today, i stand

before an arguement, and i would want to listen to the other side of the story and understand

them. and not just concentrating on my story and stand firm. I became a more understanding and

forgiving person while my surrounding is turning grey. i always told myself to move forward but

in the end, it's still the person at the starting point or the person at each check point who

saved me.

I became a frog in Master Jiraya's story, but i was in the well. when i saw hands that can pull

me out, i decline at first, yet accepted it later. when i finally get out of the well, darkness

kick me back in. the feeling of hopeless and helplessness, just like when Master Jiraya falls

helplessly into the ocean. The different part of it is, Master Jiraya place his hope on others,

while i can still fight on. and so, i shall follow the main character in Master Jiraya's book,

to be strong and never give up. like that person would say, "This is my way of Ninja(Life)!"......

6 Weeks left Part 1/2

it is annoying to listen to people, who have a world of knowledge, sometimes.

months/weeks ago, this person talked to me a little, telling me things about being a programmer

in singapore and in USA. the way both country train students, like me, is like heaven and earth.

For people who knows. USA university teaches student things like 'Why are programming languages designed this way?' and 'How to write codes for Operating Systems (Eg. Windows 2000, XP,Vista etc)' while in singapore, we only learn how to write applications.

It is just similar to 'People in USA knows how to design and build a building from scratch' while

'People in Singapore only knows how to decorate or renovate rooms'. here's one example.

People in USA built a HDB for singaporeans. and Singaporeans renovate it, (Eg adding a drawer.).

People who brought and lives in the house uses the drawer we made. (We affect the users directly...)

But, the real thing is. People lives in the HDB People in USA built, and uses things people in

Singapore in people added on.

It's sad to say, we are riding on USA's glory but, it's not as if People in USA don't know how to

'renovate.'

So, what i am saying is...we use OS like Windows 2000,XP,vista. but we usually would think..

'I am using Microsoft Word, Internet Explorer, playing Football Manager'...as a programmer (To be), i refuse to be happy because i know how to program things that is used by users directly. i want to know how to create the base of everything, an OS (Windows 2000,XP.etc)... argh.......

No matter what, although the person wouldn't see this, but, Thanks for telling me anyway...

7 to go...

7 Weeks to go...it will all be over within 7 weeks, i hope...... let 2010 have a fresh clean start. I don't hope to have another regretful year, regretting what i have decided. Next Year's schedule are somewhat fixed a little already. Jan-March, Major Project back in School. (Final Year Project). After graduating from school, it will be 'To the Army'......i can only wonder how life would be, but never know, never be able to change a thing in my current state.

All i know, I am getting crazy about this girl, but i can't get her. I am getting crazy with my environment, but i can only ride the wave. I am getting crazy because of my inability, but i can't be ability-ied in an instant. Wants to add on to my Life is like a Cup of Coffee, but can't think of anything recent, so, is life really like a Cup of Coffee or did my Cup just collided with another?

Still, many people do say, No matter what happens.."Life Goes on"......so, i'm Moving on!...

(Freak, just get bored of it already)......